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Depression stirs in this young mans heart like powdered Lipton Ice Tea in a cup filled with water. As the days go on I find out that all my friends or most of them being "ex friends" are stuck in a "he said, she said" and don't really know how to confront someone about something. I have realized how even when I joke around about going to a club and smashing three "BITCHES," gets texted to and told to the girl that I am trying to overwhelm with love again. Sometimes I believe that my life is going to be worth something to someone. I feel like everyone in my group(or who were in my group) only think of me as the kid that goes to them with a problem, but the difference between me and them, is that a depressed kid like me, who is in dire need of a friend isn't afraid to vent, and ask for advice, and that is one thing that I am very proud of. Another thing I have noticed is how the one best friend I love the most seems only to get annoyed be me, and I feel like he torments me all the time, he enjoys making me feel stupid, and he never does it to anyone else. I honestly just feel like I have no one left in my life. I just wish I felt more Loved. I don't know why I have felt like this since forever, but it's just always how I have felt. I feel alone all the time, and it sucks. I have found myself crying when I go to sleep and sometimes I don't even know why. I feel like I can't even talk to anyone about it, and I hate it. I just really want a good friend.

If

david

austin

perry

dillan

soncha

josh c

josh v

lisette

lisa

ej or sarah ever read this, I don't want you to pity me. I just really want a Friend. I really love you guys, and I hate that I feel like I don't have anyone left.